Can't Play It

It's really stressful to me when I try to create music. It just doesn't "come" to me like I see it come to others. I want so much to write music to express my emotions. It frustrates me that it doesn't come naturally. Why won't it play like I want it. I can't think up cool guitar parts and play them. Randomly tunes will pop in my head but even if I'm around a guitar I can't make it sound anything like what I hear in my head. God please help me overcome this. Or give me a vocal challenger at least. I can't keep learning by singing along to songs in my car. Something has got to change. God, I'm asking please.

When Everything Turns Upside Down, I've Still Got You to Cling to

Inside I am beautiful. Like the poetry in motion seen only on a battlefield in someone's soul. Bloodstained, my heart torn, crying out for life and love. Beauty, too few can really see but those who can know that inside I am bursting with hope for all. No matter how ugly my own struggles get there is something, deep and powerful shining just below the surface. Even I cannot begin to unlock what is hidden inside but someone out there can. A shining glimmer of it in my eye, when I cry for justice, love, and beauty in and for others. I am a hero at heart though my victories be few. I cannot begin to leave out that in myself there are still battles to be fought, scars to be earned, loves to be lost, and dreams to be shattered. But still... I must keep fighting on in hopes that someday I will truly shine like I am meant to; piercing even into the darkest of others souls, in hopes that someday they too will unlock the beauty hidden in the darkness. We are all fighting this battle of darkness and light. All of us beautiful, all of us in love, in hope for the day when light becomes our everything. The day Light becomes the hero inside of us. Till then we must fight on...